My sister-in-law called at 10pm Sunday night to invite us to come catch fireflies in her backyard. My first inclination was "it's late, the kids are almost in bed, Randy's tired, lets plan it for another time" but then I felt that nudge that reminded me that I cannot always plan and control the future, I need to stop and enjoy my present.
For me this has been one of the blessings of Randy's GIST. It has made me more aware and deliberate in my choices. I take less for granted and in doing so I am continually blessed. While the pain and sorrow I feel about what we have lost or may lose in this journey are sometimes acute, God has balanced that with great joy and happiness for the innumerable blessings He has given. This gives me hope for the future.
Contrary to my initial protests, we went. There were hundreds of twinkling fireflies in the trees, on the ground and flying. It is hard to describe but it felt truly magical. So, long story short, we took 2 baby food jars, 2 sleepy kids, and 2 tired grown ups --- caught fireflies and made memories.
On 6/29 Bill replied...
You brought back some old memories for me. I remember catching fireflies in the summer and it was a lot of fun.
You kind of worded things how I see events as well. I hate having GIST and hate taking Gleevec. I hate no knowing what the future really holds. However it certainly has made me so much more aware of the blessings of each and every day. Simple things that I used to take for granted are now opportunites to be thankful.
I wake up daily and thank God for allowing me that and when I go to sleep I am always thankful for having had another day. Simple pleasures become great pleasures. I will enjoy things more fully from now on. So in a strange way, I am even more blessed than I have ever been.
Keep making memories.